Can a good man do terrible things and still be good? There was a time when I believed I was a good man, but now those words linger in my mouth with the taste of deceit. A lie, not to others, only to myself.
My past has shaped me into the man I am. Unfortunately, I am scared of my past. More so, I am terrified of my future. A crucible lays around the corner; I know I am not strong enough to make it through. I am not a good enough man.
John Dewey once said, “The good man is the man who, no matter how morally unworthy he has been, is moving to become better.” The problem with these words, is how do you know if you are working to be a better man? What if all the wicked things I have done, have mutated me into a man that can no longer tell good from bad?
Remember to smile,
Hipster Harrison
Bipolar Harrison 
If you wish to be a good man, you will be one. If you concentrate on the good in yourself and others, you will re-discover the good in your past and start looking forward to the good in your future
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If you weren’t a good man you wouldn’t wonder or worry.
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The reflection and thoughts demonstrated here show guilt, remorse and a will to improve – I think these are qualities of a goid person.
But then ‘good’ is only a concept and its definition changable and relative.
Nobody is perfect, you just do the best you can with the information you have at the time.
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Yep, the fact that you care says you’re on the right track. Doing something different next time, and making amends, will speak volumes too.
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As long as the past doesn’t dictate what you do now or in the future it is of no consequence. There is no way to change the past. The future is ours to make of it what we will.
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